PART ONE:
Dear Anonymous Love,
What seemed to be nothing more than a simple attraction has now expeditiously grown into complicated strings of incomprehensible feelings. It has seemed that Emotion has insidiously planted its roots onto me. I am entangled from the bottom of my feet to the very tip of my skull by adhesive vines that have no desire of letting go anytime soon. I have been left speechless, my vocal chords sown together by the fragile hands of Fear. Fear of losing you by expressing the feeling Emotion has imbedded onto me; Fear of change, Fear of my own stupidity, Fear of my own inevitable clumsiness, fear of regret. Quite simply, fear of Fear itself.
Now that you are aware of the cell I have placed myself in, let me explain the circumstances that have watered the very seed Emotion has planted into me. It is necessary for you to know in order for you to understand how I have fallen under such an enchantment; Since I am nothing more than a paper with words at the moment these reasons can perhaps paint a picture of me, to prevent you from thinking of me as a delirious phantom. I am far from that, I can assure you.
During the time when land was covered with an abundant blanket of arctic snow, a time where flowers were as fragile as a thin glass house, your presence alone provided a warmth the absent and faint Sun could not. You shone with such fervid compassion that Time could abruptly stop in place, Spring and Summer could have left the surface of the Earth. What they provided I no longer needed. To put it quite simple, you put the Sun to shame. It was with your warmth and the way you shone that triggered these feelings.
However, it wasn’t until I saw the way you could love, not me but others, that rooted these emotions in place. You could distinctively love what you believed in ways other could not. It was the way you firmly place your family before anyone else that that set the vines slithering into motion. It was your gentle nature that has trapped me in place. It is here where Fear introduced itself to me for the first time. It was at this very moment that it whispered into my ear mentioning the idea of losing you. Love and Fear have started their game of Tug-Of-War. The questions I keep asking myself are:
Which side I would take?
and
What side would be better for you?
Just know I’m doing this for you.
Sincerely Yours,
Anonymous Lover
2:25 A.M.
