As many of you know or may not know, I have encountered a relationship with God within the past year or two. This may come as a surprise to quite a few of you. To others this comes as an open confession to the rest of the world as to the path I have decided to take in my future. I’ve decided to follow in His footsteps to strengthen my spiritual relationship as well as a way for me to love Him, our savior Jesus Christ, more.
For several years I have neglected pursuing such a relationship. Due to a series of events I have felt neglected, isolated, and betrayed. My reaction to such incidents caused me to walk away from a path that I would inevitably encounter in my near future. For years He has been pursuing my heart and for years I have turned away. It is safe for me to say that He has found me and not the other way around. I made the choice of starting to allow Him to guide and direct me.
Since then I have learned many things. Mostly that He loves us for who we are inside, not by the things we do. With that in mind I have been trying to change my lifestyle and have managed to fail on several different occasions. However, everyday I learn something new….One day I realized that I should not force these changes onto me. These objects that I once idolized; movies, money, people, pleasure and satisfaction from materialistic objects, would eventually be pulled away from my life in a gentle manner. With time I would learn to become a better Christian; not by force but by the His patience.
These last couple of months I have felt empty, spiritually and emotionally. The things that once brought pleasure and satisfaction in my life no longer managed to provide me with what I thought I needed. It took time for me to understand why, but as with any child I eventually learned what was going on. It was a sign, a message, a metaphor. In His eyes we are children and with His loving heart He holds our hands, just like any father would, and walks us through life. Everything had been fine, perfect, beautiful until that one day…He let go of my hand and let me take a couple of steps. I would take some steps forward, some backward. When I was stumbling and swaying side to side I found comfort on leaning myself against an object, a wall, a false idol. With time I became frustrated, annoyed, afraid, and lost. Why were these things that helped me walk and stand in life no longer providing satisfaction to me?
Well, it was His clever way of telling me that I did not need these things in life. With his beautifully disguised lesson I have learned to let go of the things I once watched, listened, and believed. It was a change of heart I made not by force but by choice and an easy decision it was, thanks to God.
With that being said I have made the choice of changing my lifestyle and I’m sure more changes are to come. What I ask of you my friends, my “followers” , is to respect my belief and my decisions. I apologize if what I believe or say seems offensive to you. There is no pun intended with my words. I hope we can still remain friends….whether your belief is different than mine I still love you guys.
What you will find in my future blog posts are going to be reflections in life after reading the Bible. My blog will contain many references to our Saviour. If you find this to be offensive to you I respectfully ask you to unfollow me to prevent any disrespect you may find in my words. I will continue blogging about my personal life, thoughts, and emotions from time to time, however I will undoubtedly reference my God in them.
What I am hoping to follow after this blog post is a project. A 30 Day project, so to speak. One where I will read a passage from the Bible every night/day and write my interpretation of it on my Tumblr.
To all my friends that do not believe in what I believe….I hope we can still remain friends…
With all that being said and done I will end this Blog.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He will make your paths straight.”
(Proverbs 3:5-6)
